In the Present Moment: Baaaahhhh...

Feeling a little sheepish about my earlier post.

 I'm OK.

 Really.

 Went to the gym and did 30 minutes of weightlifting and 45 minutes on the treadmill and am feeling MUCH better. Much less pitiful.

 And just a touch embarrassed to have been wallowing so much in my own pitifulness earlier today.

 Bahhh.

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